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    To My Middle Sister

    You are pushing me towards the edge and you know it. I saw the texts you sent my husband. About how thankful you are that he’s taking care of your baby sister, and how horrible it must be for him to look after me. And how much you’re trying to hold your temper in, against my personal attacks. Well, go on then. Unleash your temper. Tell me what I have done to you that made you feel hurt, abandoned and unworthy. Tell me the things I’ve said that made you cry. Tell me about the time I’ve hit you out of frustration and spite. Tell me. Yes. How horrible it…

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    The Beginning of July

    Waking up is agony I tell you. Complete and utter writhing agony. Just when I think the anti-depressants are kicking in, Yuto has been in the hospital since the 3rd. It’s been a week and there’s no work on when he can go home. Even though I’m not the one and should not be the one footing the bill, I feel an exacerbated financial strain. It’s igniting the other sparks in my mind that were flickering out. That and the worry, and the never-ending helplessness that I feel, compiled with basically being a walking corpse riddled with sadness, exhaustion and the flu. Why am I even here? Why do I…